My journey to the land of my adoption!

I was sitting on the aeroplane from Joburg to Dubai I was overwhelmed with a tidal wave of sorrow. My soul was in anguish over leaving home, leaving the comfortable and familiar and at that moment I felt so alone and forsaken. It was like God had turned His face away from me and I cried out for Him to just surround me with His love, I just needed to know that He was here with me. God showed me the price Jesus had to pay for us and how He felt on the days leading to the cross. He was in anguish and felt forsaken at that moment when He asked His father to take this cup from Him and yet not His will but God's will be done. We all have our own price to pay.

Through my tears, I asked God why do I have to go through this when I was willing to surrender my will for His and He kept on pointing to Jesus.

You know when we talk about being pioneering and spear-heading, nobody knew what that really meant. You find yourself in place where few people tread. It is a lonely place because you are in the front and everyone is coming behind you. It is a hard road but it sets the platform for the ground that needs to be broken and the trail that needs to be blazed.

It is no easy thing to leave your comfort zone with the familiar and family. I wonder how Abraham felt. I believe with everything within me that God who sacrificed His son, sacrifices His children so that the world can be saved. Jesus paid the ultimate price and we have to endure like He did because He did it so that we will not grow weary and lose heart(Heb 12:3).

Eventhough this was a tough journey, I have taken away something that will stay with me forever, God's perfect will over my, oh so imperfect will. He began to pour in His healing balm into my broken & crushed heart.

The in-between part is always not told and that's the part that makes you or breaks you! I know what it means to deny myself, take up my cross and follow Jesus but I know I will have to do this for the rest of my life. I pray that I will run this race with endurance, keeping my eyes fixed on Jesus.

My new journey begins in the land of my adoption where the execution of His will will take place until such time He tells us His next intention.

Until we meet again!

God bless!

Love
Heather